The Fragile Ego

This year, I had 2 articles accepted for publication by Guideposts Magazine. The first one, based on Spooked By An Angel, was published in the March/April 2020 edition of Angels on Earth, a sister publication of Guideposts. My second article, based on Christmas Eve in Jail, is in the editing process. It’s slated to be published in a December issue of Guideposts magazine. This makes me happy.

Last year, I had another article accepted for publication by Upper Room, a devotional magazine. I haven’t heard back from Upper Room editors in over 6 months, so I think I’ll submit that article, The White Flower, to Guideposts. Thus far, I have submitted 4 articles to 2 magazines. Three have been accepted for publication. One was declined.

Writing for the blog was more rewarding when I lived in Honduras. It kept me and my readers entertained, as well as keeping others informed about my life and ministry. Now that I live in the states, I struggle to find purpose for my writing. Not only do I want a larger audience, but I want to find a greater purpose in writing.

Writing about my life in Louisiana can be rewarding at times, but the lack of readership annoys me. I barely reach 50 readers, and that’s a good week. Call it vanity if you will, but I sometimes feel like I am writing in an echo chamber. I feel like I am the only voice that I hear in response to my writing. My fragile ego is in need of a hearty backslap or some sort of affirmation.

I know that perseverance is a key to feeling better about writing, whether or not I am recognized by a greater audience. It hasn’t helped that I have started and stopped writing a few times, changed writing platforms and site names a few times. Also, blogging is not as popular as it was 10 years ago. More and more people like short and quick media posts on platforms such as Facebook, Instagram, Twitter or Tic Tok.

I appreciate those who take the time to comment here or on Facebook. What can you suggest for writer’s doldrums? How do you, my fellow bloggers, cope with feelings that your writing seems unimportant?

11 thoughts on “The Fragile Ego

  1. Laurie I have read your blogs since you where in Honduras, I am not a writer but I enjoy reading from writer’s like yourself be it about far away places or what’s happening around the corner. Please keep it up.

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  2. The feeling that your talking to yourself, that your writing does not make any difference, is common among writers regardless of the vehicle. I used to write editorials for a newspaper in Chicago with a Sunday circulation of nearly a million, and even then I often wondered if anyone cared what I thought or wrote about.

    I don’t know what motivates you to write. For me, right now, it’s simply the fun, the joy, of stringing words and sentences together into a coherent story that makes me happy. I think you’re a very good writer, and having some of your stories accepted for publication supports my opinion.

    One thing I would not do is pander to like-minded people just for the sake of spurring traffic on your blog. Some bloggers do that, and I think it’s ultimately dishonest and self-defeating.

    If it makes any difference, some of your writing on spirituality has resonated with me. Since you mentioned it, I’ve listening to “Pray as You Go” every morning, and I find it a nice way to start the day.

    So there. Keep on writing.

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  3. I didn’t know you worked for a major newspaper. I am sure that was a great job. Thanks for the encouragement that even with a readership potentially of a million readers, sometimes you felt you were writing only for yourself. I am glad Pray as You Go has been good for you. I listen and engage with most mornings, too.

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  4. I have always thought of you as a southern Anne Lamott. And I mean that in a nice way.

    I fully understand your need to find more purpose for your writing. Best of luck with finding that groove. As for me, I write to keep my mind active — in the futile hope of forestalling my slip into dementia.

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    1. That’s high praise indeed. A southern Anne Lamott. Have you read anything by Bailey White? She’s my personal hero. I want to write like her. Her books I think may be out of print, but her best work was her first, Mama Makes Up Her Mind. Southern stories. As far as forestalling dementia, I doubt that will be your fate. You are far too sharp.

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